My ex recently had a sit down chat bout him and his new girlfriend. He didnt really know how I was gonna take it. But I think I did pretty okay. I cried of course. But its because I still love him. But it makes me realize that I didnt treat him like i shuldve. I hope they’re happy, and I hope he’s happy. Because then I can say that Im happy =). Idk. I really need to get myself togethr. This year needs to be all about me, lol even though Im told Ive always been about me. But I know what I want, and that i to be happy. Im not gonna let anyone stand in my way of accomplishing that dream.
Sometimes I feel like i deserve things, or i deserve to be wit someone. But then I have to wake up and realize that I cant be with them, if they themselves dont want to be with me…So i think to myself, did i do something wrong? nd I didnt. Its just how life is…so then life goes on. I think it actually is a good thing. I need to get my mind right…Ive done ppl crud and i guess this is karma catching up with me…
